Saturday, October 23, 2010

This is why...

Some days, like today, I look at Sage and worry I've missed something important. One of her developmental milestones, if you will. I find myself rapidly running through first tooth, first steps, first word, desperately clinging to every moment. Then I seem to regain logic and reason; I haven't missed a thing. I have been with her almost every second of her life. David, too. Maybe all mommies (and daddies) experience this memory-panic. Maybe it's because today she is exactly 2-and-3/4-yrs-old and subconsciously I am marking the anniversary. Each day there are new moments to commemorate, new milestones to celebrate. I want to witness every single one...and this is just one reason why we have chosen this lifestyle. There are other reasons -- some I have written or will write about, and others that are private. When I see all the things my 2-almost-3-yr-old is learning and seeing and doing, I do not question my choice. I know all the reasons why we are here, happily celebrating milestones...together.

2 comments:

  1. Yes, you are making wonderful memories for yourselves and Sage. She will never forget these times. I think what you are doing is great!

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  2. I know exactly what you mean - the years have started to seem like they're just flipping by at light speed and I have moments of terror that all this stuff is flying by and it'll never come again. It's so easy to get wrapped up in work and wanting to get past the next 'big' deal there only to come home and realize that the other half of my life I want to just freeze and enjoy.. but it won't. Which is also half good because as much as I've loved every stage of Nina and Jack's development there's something great in the next one!

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